I want to feel
Inside my chest
With every breath I take
The spaces where air resides
The cold rushing in to my larynx
Stretching out my alveoli with each
Deep diaphragmatic contraction and the
Serenity in each emptying of my warmth
Or perhaps the bloody taste of iron rising
Almost past the tip of my confusion run
Through that cold cloudy day and the pain
That burned my chest passed my throat and
Unable to breathe I knew I had ran my best then
I want to breathe the same today
Relive that memory
That taught me freedom from limitations
Comes through the pain of tearing away
Of body tissues through hard pain
And muscle fibers lost
Replaced by strength tomorrow
I long for this purity of standing alone and being content with the strength creating a new piece of me
I know not how to stand in a place shared without surrendering my whole transparent soul
I want nothing more than feeling the fleeting pain burning as though a pillar of unity with me
Pledging to torment me forever then fleeing with a promise of return
The consuming darkness of your breath withheld as your temple is brought tempting to touch mine
The empty mind activating my subconscious to move even while my stopped breath holding chest up
I do not wish to become breathless if our lungs were to synchronize and this shared space your breath
Blackened the transparency of my soul cutting off the oxygen allowing me to remember to run
I want to run
Alone
Frivolous waves of shared air color my chest
I desire to feel that feared pain once again
And right now this will repeat until something changes
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